Archive for February 2003
Added a new page to the site (http://www20.brinkster.com/tanhadil/ideas.asp)
Will write in detail soon…
Had a hectic day… Studied for the exam (which strikes in about 28 days.)
Downloaded a COM port control plugin for winamp. Made a little remote control… now I can
control winamp from anywhere in my room!!! There’s just one little problem… it is not
wireless :-( But I must appreciate the programmer’s efforts in creating that plugin. With
just 3 buttons, I can control _almost_ all necessary functions on Winamp! (They include -
start/stop/pause/next track/prev track/vol up/vol down/forward/rewind)
Completed working on the mystery – Did Anastasia Romanova survive the massacre? The
‘solid’ answer is still not clear. But I firmly (and sadly) believe – she did not.
Yesterday I downloaded Anastasia’s photos. I now have over 100 photos of the beautiful
princess! I have also downloaded many pages of information on the Romanov family. I
studied the information presented by many people and have come to the conclusion that even
the experts are confused about what the history is… almost each account of the family
differs at some point or the other!
Although the evidences presented from (the possible impostor) Anna Anderson’s side are
compelling enough, my heart is not ready to accept that Anna was Anastasia. If she really
was Anastasia, I can only apologise for not being able to make good decisions. So whether
Anna was Anastasia is a question that still remains… all I have to say now is that we
must learn a few good things from her life – we cannot take anything for granted – the
changes that occur in our lives are not always controllable – no matter what our position
is, no matter who we are. Another fact that I have found common in all accounts is that
the family was in prayer all of the time – it reminds us to keep the faith in God
Almighty. One more thing – even during their captivity, the parents took good care of
their children – amongst other things, they continued their children’s education by taking
up the job of teaching themselves.
The photos reveal many facts, one which I observed most is that the family was closely
knit and loving in nature… one cannot fake the emotions in so many photographs.
(Coming back to present…)
I really wish that we learn to live in harmony with each other. And stop the bloodshed
that we are getting to see almost everyday.
The war-mood is really depressing me. I cannot look into the future and imagine a good
position for me – working, earning, living happily. All I can see is devastation – lots of
it. Probably I will be dead by the time I should be starting my business or job!
(Hey I am not a pessimistic… it’s just a thought that came to my mind – because if my
country is dragged into a war, I will fight for it’s cause – and can only hope that I
return home someday)
Anyway, have to keep studying (like Ana) and hope and pray that I can live a complete and
fulfilling life. I just hope that I will be able to read this fifty years later and laugh
at my imagination!!
May God Bless Everyone. Especially my Parents, Brother and M – my love.
P.S. Did I tell you that Ana’s photos remind me of M all of the time? The stories of
Ana’s mischief remind me of my time with M in school.
Note: Ana is how Anastasia was mostly known and Anna is Anna Anderson’s first name.
Got myself registered on alumni.net, let's hope I get to find some good friends of mine. Or it may happen otherwise… can only hope!
At last! I updated my website (http://www20.brinkster.com/tanhadil) and got it up and running.
Also changed the properties / style of my Journal… it looks more like my website now!
I have been alive for 7098 days! (A little program that I wrote just now tells me this.) Well, I will include this little number on top of my notes from now on, just to remind me that life is much shorter than we expect… if I live for 70 years, I will see around 25,550 days, which does not seem to be a big number to me!
Cleaned up my room today (a bit) and put up some nice posters that I designed and printed out. Also put up the picture of the patch of “Columbia Shuttle – STS 107 Crew” It has the names of all the 7 brave people who died in a tragic accident.
Today was ‘blue day’ in college so I was in a blue dress with a blue tie, but not in a blue mood! Enjoyed today’s lectures. Had a nap after coming home… was so tired that I slept like a dead man! In the evening, I helped dad in shiftinf one of his book-shelves.
Downloaded “Silent Bob” a software that keeps on recording incoming sound… and when you hear something you “should have” recorded, just ask Silent Bob, he has around last 2 minutes of sounds in his memory! But what a pity, it own’t install, the setup file is damaged. I’ll download it again when I connect to upload this blog.
(And then the regular…) Remembered M. I was thinking of her this afternoon… I don’t understand one thing, how am I going to handle her dad? He’s my professor in college!!! And as far as I know him, he is a tough person. If he gets to know about my love for M, he’s surely going to fail me in the exams! (God help me)
Mom, Dad and Pritam will be going to UK in the summer holidays… I’ll be staying back. I think I’ll go sometime later, like after my Graduation is over, so instead of just wasting the money in sight seeing, I might be able to earn something right there.
Anyway, let’s see how things turn out.
I consider #7098 a regular day in my life. I hope to have a good day tomorow.
I was unable to write for a few days b’coz I was tired and also b’coz I was unable to connect to the net… probably the slammer (helkern) worm has attacked the Indian servers!! The speed was a crawling 0.1 to 0.3 kbps!!!!!!!!!! That is utterly disguisting! My download of a 59kb image took ages, even though I was using Download Accelrator. The usual download speed is about 5 kbps which IS slow. but it’s OK. Of course, while I am writing, I don’t know what the speed will be, but I sure hope it’s fine today.
Nothing great happening for a few days. Except that I got for myself a small CD on which I have burned a few utilities and softwares. It’s still a new thing here in Nagar and my friends are pretty impressed… I think it’s just because Ahmednagar is still a small town… and not a city, as is the belief of many.
I attended the college and the tutions (something’s wrong with me!) I also studied a litle bit for my exams.
Remembered M. Missed her smile. Missed her. (Love Ya M!)
That’s it for now.
2nd Feb was a very lazy day.
I can’t remember doing anything important. Bonney was here with a new audio cassette by ‘Karunesh’. The music is good. So I ripped it into mp3 and was listening to it all evening.
Of course, all the time I remembered M. I was feeling like I should get a train to Baramati (where she is studying) and go and meet her. But again the brain v/s heart war began, and alas, the brain won. So I stayed back… lying on my bed, just thinking about her. Praying for her well being. Then going into sleep. Waking up again… listening to music… falling asleep as I drowned in her thoughts…
I would consider today a non-productive day. But my mood was brightened by my _only_ e-pal’s mail. (you’ll probably know if I am talking about you!)
Nothing else to talk about.
The Columbia Space Shuttle has broken up in mid-air. The 7 member crew is dead.
The news is really very sad indeed. (I got the news at around 10:30)
An Indian lady – Kalpana Chawla was on the mission. She was the first woman to leave earth and come back, alas, only once. This was the second time she flew. And another person, from Israel, had left earth for the first time. The 5 other than these were from America. I pray to God that He may bless the departed souls. May He also belss everyone who is related to the the people who were on the mission. Please God help them
and give them your strength and peace to face this tragedy.
In my mind, each person on the mission is a hero. These brave people have carved a place in our minds forever.
When I think about myself, my problems, they seem so small when compared to what the crew's families are facing. Please God, bless all those who risk their lives and do things that will help us. Bless all the researchers and scientists. Bless all the search and rescue workers. Bless all the doctors, fire-fighters and policemen. Bless each and everyone who make our lives better.
I'll write about my marvelous experiences of yesterday sometime later, I am having totally different feelings in my mind at this moment.
May God Bless everyone.
Yesterday was the BIG day!!!
I exhibited my project – a small presentation on the topic – “Computer Viruses – Facts and Fiction”. The reason for the specific topic was that many people are totally blank when it comes to computer viruses. Some also think that the dust carries viruses and if we don't keep the comp clean, it gets infected! The fiction is amusing, and the fact is confusing!
Well apart from either stupid or ignorant people, I gt the chance to meet many intelligent people… of course not all of them had a good nature, as some of them tried hard to break down my confidence. But alas! their efforts were in vain. After the show was over, many of my seniors and also some of my professors praised me for my patience. Well, I can only thank God for gifting me those qualities.
And, now for the surprise, or may be a shock for the Department of Computer Science… a student from the First Year came first in the quiz competition, the second one was from the Third Year and to make this whole thing a big joke, the third prize was awarded to a professor!!!
Ok. Can I boast a little bit here? It was me who won the first prize! “Thank you God”. The reason I mentioned the prize winners was simply to prove my point, 'formal studies do not prepare you for everything', it's the education that you gain yourself that helps you zoom ahead of your seniors and sometimes luckily even your teachers!!! I thank God for giving me enough brains to understand and grasp so many things. But all the time I realise that what I know is nothing as compared to what is out there. I want to learn as much as possible before I get in a position where I cannot.
I have to wind up here… must have my dinner. Will continue later.